I really need to set my soul up
Hey everyone,
I am a 18 years old girl, and I believe that I am that kind of girls who are good at choosing the wrong man,; even I have never had a boyfriend before, because I show them that expression that I am not interested in relatiohsips. There is a guy in the university who I noticed that he was interested in me before I even know him. By time I notced that he never stops looking at me in a lovely shy way whenever I pass by him, he doesn't even care about people around him. He smiles some times, but always looks at me when I am standing on a distance but whenwe are close he can't look directly at the eyes, but when I turn my head to see him behind me , he does the same at the same moment.. anyway , by time a charm and something hard to be explained had happened between us even we never ever talked to each other , I knew his name once whensome one was calling him. Our exchanged love in expressed by eye contact. Whe we see each other we both ignore the sutuation around us. And even when I talk with my friends he stops talking and he listens to my talk and observes my actions , while I show that I am not interested until I am about to leave the place I look at him with A small smile and leave. Anyway, that started before five months, and nothing had changed until now ! I am in love , very very interested , all my friends know what I am going through, even they notice his way of looking at me and only me among hundreds of people whenI am around him until today. The shock had happened when one of his friends said that he already has a girlfriend since three years and lives in another city,and he keeps talking about her all the time. God help me . What does all that mean , does he love two girls or confused which one to choose.. or it is not love, I don't think so . It is very obvious , everyone knows what he does when I am near him, even his friends keeps looking at me... I want to know what to do , and what is this all about? I can't give up this love. Because I really love him , and I know he really likes me as well..