My best friend kissed me?
We have been friends since 8 years now. This really shocked me, I didn't know what to do or what to say. But part of me wasn't impressed, he's such a tease. I remember when we were abroad, and saw someone like weird girls or priests coming by, he would hold my hand and come close to my face to simulate he wanted to kiss me. He would play with people also, by seducing them doing weird stuff, like faces. Once, when were alone in a room, he hugged me by behind and threw me to the bed with him, kiss my cheek and hug me, saying me to never leave him. I felt weird but didn't say anything because I thought that was part of his nature, that he didn't meant it in a romantical way, plus I thought he was sad, because of what he said. But he does alike stuff often and tells me I'm cute.
Now, one night, like 3 days ago, I went to his home, a cute sleepover and when we were in his room, he takes out alcohol, saying to me that it has an wonderful, you didn't even feel the alcohol. In other words, he got me drunk, and he started looking at me, then he hugged me, and ran his hands all over my chest. I was dizzy, so I laid still, and then he kissed me. We were on it for two minutes, to stop and start over.
Then after and embarrassing long time, I told him to stop and I fell asleep. And the following days he didn't act like nothing happened, he kept on and tried to seduce me, kissing me, etc. I really love him, he has been there for me forever, I really don't want to end this friendship, but I don't want to stay like this. Now I even don't know what I feel. I've come to think about it, and maybe I helped in this too, maybe I wanted it to. Deep inside I want everything back to 6 years ago, when everything was normal. I think he's using me, that he wants to feel how is it with other guys.
I admit he's handsome and even I started doubting myself (mostly because of his advances), but I want to be friends, just that, something else would ruin us completely. What do I do? Is there any hope for our friendship?
