Hi everyone
You might have read an earlier post of mine. Doesn't matter if not! Im feeling really lost at the moment. I thought I was going well with myself after my breakup. I was not contacting my ex at all. I haven't heard from her for 5 weeks. Then suddenly for the last week I just keep thinking about her, what she is doing, is she is dating again, if she is sleeping with someone else. I know I can't control her life, but these thoughts run through my head constantly.
She was my first girlfriend. I was her first boyfriend. We lost our virginity to each other. I told her things no one else knows. I loved her... if I loved her why did it have to end?? :(
Now I'm a little scared that I can never find anyone else again :( . I can't see how I can have feelings for someone else so soon. I don't want to jump into seeing someone else now because it won't be fair to them. I don't want any one night stands either. I just want to know when this feeling will go away... the feeling of knowing my ex is out there somewhere, in a world we once shared and now has been completetly changed for me. The feeling that she is happily moving on and forgetting me.
I also feel guilty that it was my fault for the breakup, even though I did nothing wrong at all. I don't want this to haunt me forever, I don't want it intruding in my next relationship. Im very scared I will never move on. Help!!