Well I mean we all have problems and right now mine are at its peak I've been skipping school, smoking, drinking just everything someone my age isn't supposed to considering I'm only 15. This adventure started when my grandma died in a home invasion and I had to watch and that made me feel like everyone was going to end up like that one way or another early or late and even thought that's true I was 12 and I don't believe that's how kids are supposed to think. Well I'm going to skip a couple things and get to recent times, my girlfriend who is one year older then me and we have been together a little more then a year lost her virginity to some duche when she was 13 and they went crazy and had sex I don't know like every day and now that I'm with her and lost my virginity to her I find it extremely hard to deal with sometimes and not to mention she was raped as a child so just sometimes its really hard and while she's had sex like 200 times (most likely I'm exaggerating that) me and her have only had sex twice. As you can imagine I'm just extremely jealous and we fight about it maybe once a week and I love her so please nobody say "just leave her". Also my family is in a crisis and has been dissolved since the divorce of my parents a year ago and the other day I got in a fight with my dad and he punched me in the face and through a wall... as you can imagine that's no something that can just sit well in someone's mind. My mom found cigarettes in my room this morning and told me I have lost my privilege to call this my home. I'm just in shambles right now and I need someone to listen to me.

Well... believe it or not this is a test and I'm not trying to preach or convert you... this where you need to talk to god and tell him your plans aren't working out... ask him to show you how he wants you to live you just have to ask.

I promise things will turn around for you

Please keep in mind that this is an International Board and not everyone here believes in God. "I promise things will turn around for you" is an empty promise. It is good that you have faith but I believe the OP needs more than that right now.

Austinbrown, you're in a bad place right now, no doubt. You've seen and experienced more in your short life than anyone I've ever seen posting. As far as your girlfriend is concerned it sounds like she used bad judgment but it also sounds like she was with ONE guy multiple times. She was with multiple partners, correct? She is with you because she cares for you, possibly loves you, and I'm sure you know neither one of you can change her past.

I trust (even though it's "only" been twice) that you use protection (which, of course, is not 100% effective) because sex with or without protection can create another life. You don't need that responsibility right now. I don't see her as a bad person or a person who is bad for you - I see her as a person who has been used and abused and made mistakes. Has she ever talked to anyone about her past? I realize she feels comfortable talking to you, and that's a plus for your relationship.

Is there an adult, a clergyperson, a teacher, a family doctor, a relative, you can talk to and let some of this stress out? You are ALWAYS welcome to share here and, of course, you are anonymous, but sometimes you need a real, live person to bounce your thoughts and feelings off.

Did your mother over react to your smoking, sort of a knee jerk reaction, or are there problems in your relationship?