I got diagnosed with depression last year I've been finiding it hard some days I'm OK but most days I feel I don't want to be alive anymore. I don't know why I feel like this all the time I can't say I'm happy anymore. I've also been in a relationship with my boyfriend and I find it hard to speak to him as I am emtionally unstable he says I push him away but don't mean to I'm just finiding it hard to deal with.