I lied about being raped.
I lied about being raped to my friends, because I had a bad life at home. I didn't get attention from anyone. I grew up seeing my sisters getting hit by my father. I would've taken the hits if it means anything. But When I was 15 I told a huge lie to one of my friends at school, and they believed me. It went on like that for a couple of months and then I told one other person, then another, then my boyfriend. And now all my close friends think I've been raped, and it really hurts all the time. I would tell, but then I'd lose absolutely EVERYONE and I would be completely alone. I don't know what to do to make myself happy again, because every day this lie is following me around. I've told it for so long I actually started believing it at one point and went into a depression. Please, don't judge me. This is a serious issue. I don't know what to do, and my life is falling apart. I can't lose EVERYONE. Would it just pass over if I didn't mention it anymore? Would I just forget about it?