I don't feel good enough for him!
I'm really self-conscious about myself and my boyfriend's past isn't helping at all! I've been with my boyfriend a year now and currently live with him. The thing is, I've put on weight and it shows more because I'm really small too. I also have a lot of stretchmarks all around my breasts, which aren't a pretty sight to look at. I cut my hair short and realised it doesn't suit me and that adds on to the mess.
Reason I am asking for advice for this is because my boyfriend has posters of glamour models (he took them down to make me feel a bit better but still has them in the garage) and he still looks at other stunning girls like celebrities and glamour models and whoever has the really skinny big boobs kind of body. He used to watch porn behind my back, until I caught him so he's apparently stopped, but the thing is, he wasn't watching sex porn, he was watching videos with titles such as 'sexy tattooed slut fingering herself' and other ones of just really stunning girls rubbing themselves, yet he told me he got turned on by the actions involved, not the girl :S ? Confused.
I don't want you to dislike my boyfriend completely because he does reassure me that he loves everything about me and tries to make me feel better, he just gives off the impression he wants to glamour model or slut!
Another BIG insecurity has appeared because I found out almost everyone who he's slept with or been with and most are complete Slags, although they are the skinny, big boobed person as per!
I just don't know whether to leave my boyfriend about this :/ I love him to bits but I'm also afraid he'll get someone really pretty after me, which will just make me want to cut off my own skin (I'm not psycho, that's just an extreme idea of my feelings lol)!
I'm just soooooo down on myself! I feel like I need to become a really skinny slut to make his eyes pop out of his head! I just want to be normal again, this has become too much, it's even made me want to kill myself before!
Please help me, I'm trapped and need advice :'(