Why can't I just get over it... let go...
I was with a guy who broke up with me well over a year ago... still I pine for him. Everything reminds me of him, I miss him terribly. Thing is, he was really good to me, affectionate, and so caring. I'd spend time in hospital,for dehydration at times,and he'd be there every minute, had dizziness, had to get cAT scans, he was holding my hand throughout... he would cook for me, always made sure that I was taking care of myself, massage me with oil on Fridays (he's Indian, they have these kinds of "rituals") and on and on, he always said he'd be with me forever, and well, although we had our issues,I never thought he'd leave the way he did. He'd started telling me about this woman, Jennifer (yes, I even know her name:(, said we'd get along really well, as we were both Canadian, and iknow at the time he wanted me to meet more people, I live in the UAE,so, not real easy to form friendships, anyhow, at his work he always met people, so I didn't think much of it, although I did get annoyed once and told hm, thanks, I can find my own friends and sure don't need you to help me get "female friends", so on it went,he was going to start working in Dubai, so was travelling back and forth from my place in Abu dhabi to there, very early in mrong and he'd not get home until 9 at night, I know he was going through stresses from his job... well, then we decided he'd stay in Dubai during the week with a few men who also worked for same company, last time I saw him one on a Wed moring... he left for work, I was texting him as normal, "he baby, all will be ok, etc"... but this time I wasn't hearing anything back... I thought the guy was dead as there are fatal car accidents every day. Well, Friday came, and I sent him a message that my friend from Zurich and her boyfriend would be in Dubai fr the wkend, he msgd me, am busy and always will be, well, I thought OK, stress, so I msgd, called, emailed never to hear from him again! Then I found out he was seeing this jennifer one, that he'd been with her 2 short weeks after he'd left my home... saw pics of them together at holiday inn dubai, my heart was shattered... all his things, clothing,etc, all in my home, wasn't until 2 mnths later, he picked it up outside my door, I didn't see him, but through the peephole, I was physically ill, in any case months later, I'd heard they weren'ttogether anymore(if true or not) and he'd accepted an invitation to join me on netlog, an invitation I'd not even remembered sending as it was when we were together and I never used Netlog... I noticed he was always looking at my profile,and pics... and until now, he still does, and he's even begun commenting on my pics... nothing like, I look good or anything, just random messages, I mean,I know it's been a while, but why does he do it? And well, if I were to PHONE him, he's not anser the phone... there'slots more but am boring enough already, thoughts?