That I always lie to make everything I do seem amazing like I told everyone I was going to Thailand and when that plan fell through I continued to say I was still going there.is it normal that I always have a sense of fear that I've done something wrong and will loose my friends, is it normal that every time I feel I have done something wrong the first thing that pops into my head is killing myself. Is it normal that every girl I meet I fall in love with. What is normal what is wrong with me.

Is it normal to want to fit in and belong... yes. But I would say that the degree you are feeling these needs and compulsions is not normal. It would probably be in your best interest to find someone to talk to about these issues such as a therapist or a counselor. Depending on your age, your parents might need to know as well. I'm not a doctor/therapist/counselor... it just sounds like you may have some issues that need to be talked about.

I knew a girl for many years who lied about everything... EVERYTHING. It was so bad that it got to the point that I couldn't believe her even if she told me what the weather was like outside. After I grew older, I realized she had issues. She needed to be the center of attention. Needed to be liked. Needed to feel important. These were all things she was dealing with in her lies.

Perhaps this is how you are. You don't really need to impress people. People will like you for who you are and if they don't, too bad for them. Maybe you should talk to someone to get to the bottom of why you feel you need to do this.