I fell in love with the love of my life 6 years ago. We started a relationship 1 year after I met him. We did everything togeter.. and basically became part of each others family and everday life... We were together for 3 years and were madly in love. Things started to fall apart and I decided we needed a "break". Although we never stopped talking and being there for each other throughout the entire "break", he had turned to other things on the side to deal with the pain (such as drugs). I tried to work things out with him time and time again and told him he had to pick either the drugs or me... Well needless to say 2 months ago he overdosed and passed away. I don't know how to even start to overcome this obstacle or how to start my life over. He was the love of my life and I feel like I should have saved him, but there was nothing I could do. I tried to do everything I could... and now the love of my life is gone and I have nobody. None of my friends or family understand how I am feeling... (I haven't even lost a close family member or friend EVER) This is my worst nightmare coming true... I can't imagine going on without him.

Audreylove, what??
shelz929, tragedy is something we don't forget or overcome. We make it part of us. We learn from it and use it to soothe others when we recognize it in them. We become more tender if we can, instead of bitter. We become more forgiving if we can, and tolerant. We know we are not alone, that near you is a mother who lost her child, or a refugee who lost his entire family.
I can sit here and tell you that you didn't make him overdose, but I know it won't make you feel better. But it really is true that we don't 'make' people do what they do, His personality was geared toward what he did years and years before he met you, and if it hadn't been over you it would have been over someone else.
Now about you and your immediate pain: you say you are alone and have nobody, but that's not true. You have family and friends. Of course they don't understand, but how can they? They don't have to. All they have to do is be around you and love you. So USE them and their love and support for now. Say 'let me hang around with you and go places with you, and don't try to cheer me up, just sort of include me but pretend I'm not really here,' and the comfort of their presence will be what you need.
You could go to the pound and adopt a dog or cat, an orphan or stray or abandoned or mistreated animal who needs you.

I think Audreylove is reading into this what I am, the guy was not much of a catch, I know he has passed, but they broke up, he chose drugs over her.

She just would not stop trying to change or be with him.
Now she is in love with a memory that honestly is most likely not how he really was.
Hind sight she need to go non contact when they broke up,
It is too late now.

Time will cure it.

Yeah well I've been somewhat in her shoes.
Guilt festers. I forgot to mention being sure to separate pain of loss with pain of guilt.
The first one does heal with time; the second one gets worse. It burrows under you and hides.
Mostly I'm reading rose colored glasses over him, but I hear guilt there too.
Neither one is going to help any.

Unfortunately survivor's guilt exists if there was no fault on either party - the person left behind often feels guilty about surviving when the other person has died. Death also has a way of glossing over the bad and focusing on the good. That's why relationships with widows and widowers can be difficult - the deceased partner, by virtue of death, achieves near Sainthood status.

I don't know that you boyfriend turned to drugs to ease the pain of your break up. He may or may not have dabbled; he may or may not have become addicted whether you were in a relationship. It's not your fault - not the addiction, not his death.

It is difficult to go on following ANY loss - grief takes many forms, has lots of twists and turns. Time does make things better - and I got furious with people who told me that following my husband's death because I didn't believe them - and you will come to terms with his death. It won't be easy and it won't be a steady path. There will be good days and bad days.

I'm so sorry for your loss - and, yes, what "Joy" said about guilt is 100% correct. People who have absolutely no responsibility, did all they could, are awake at night wondering, "If I had ... would things be different?"

Just make sure to take care of yourself during the process, whatever that takes.