I trusted one of my friend like anything and get attached with him emotionally. I love him too much and can't even think of living without him. My other friends warned me from time to time that he is not a good guy, he is just taking advantage of your nature. Recently I realized 2-3 times that he has cheated me and moreover he is doing backbiting as well. Even I know that but I want him to love me. My childhood was very tragic and I didn't get love from male member of my family. Since childhood I am feeling alone and depressed. Today the scenario is that he is not at all paying attention to me and I am feeling pain. Sometimes I want that he should also feel the same pain. Just to make him happy I spent so much on him as well. I am feeling being cheated the worst part is that I still love him. I am really feeling alone and broken.

He cheats he ''backbites''-seriously-you do not need him in your life.

If you are really depressed make an appointment with your doctor;get therapy-and realise that no other person can help you but yourself

Sorry for your situation, sucks I know, but see a doctor, and let time heal you and know that you must start to love yourself more, so you can protect yourself better.

I agree with the other about seeing a doctor, and seeking therapy or counseling. You need to figure out what you are missing in yourself that you are getting from him, and why it is so important that you are willing to endure emotional abuse. You don't seem to know what you want for yourself, how can you possibly know what you want and what is acceptable from a relationship. Please speak to your doctor, or a friends, who can help get you to the resources that you need.