My girlfriend split up with me after 3 and a half years
Yesterday me and my girlfriend broke up after 2 weeks of constantly having arguments. It all boils down to me and her having a complete different way of showing affection. I have never been around affection and I come from quite an unhappy family, having never seen my father and mother show affection to each other, when I have been growing up this does has been the norm for me (not seeing affection).
After nearly 2 years into the relationship, me and my girlfriend split up because of the same reason, but I assured her that I will try my best to show more affection, it was then OK for a month or so, but I lost it again, I wanted to tell her that she was pretty and she looked beautiful, but I just could not find the words. It did not help that when I said something, instead of saying thank you she would disagree with me and tell me she is not. So after a while she just went unhappy again.
She shows love by hugging and kissing and giving compliments, while I show love by looking after her, protecting her and buying her anything she wanted. Which then causes arguments because I am not as affectionate as she is.
I love her so much and I don't want to lose her, she was the only person I cared about in the world and she was the only person that cared about me. I feel so ill knowing ill never see her again, she wants to be friends but I think it's a bad idea as it would just trigger us both off again. She says she loves me so much still and she will always love me, but she can't be with me if I'm not affectionate. We were meant to be moving in together on September the 1st and we had put a deposit down on a house. That deposit is now lost as we cannot move in together.
I have tried and tried to force her into thinking I can change, but she's not taking any of it, she's scared she will still be unhappy and we will just hit this again. I wish I could get her back! I wish I could show her I can change, I don't really want to live without her, seeing her with another person will literally kill me.