I was with my boyfriend for 4 years and I was overly dependent and relied on him for everything (he was my first serious relationship). I really love him still but I ended things with him on the basis that it was time for both of us to have space and to see what life has to offer without each other. He tried to get back together but I stuck by the fact that I needed to do things alone for a bit(breakup). I obviously was extremely upset about it but I felt like it was what I needed to do for myself. A few weeks later I started seeing someone casually, instead of being independent just placing my dependency onto someone else. This other guy is nice but not what I wanted. I now feel like I can never get back with my ex as I have seen someone else and he would think I left him for this guy, which isn't true. I don't know what to do I'm so dissapointed in myself. Please help me!

Poor thing, dumping one guy for another without a proper healing solved nothing, so be single and work on being independent like you wanted.

Stop playing with other people's hearts. Not fair to them or you.

Figure out who you are & what exactly it is you want before you get into a relationship.

Don't cry after the fact.

Lesson learned.

Stop being disappointed in yourself. This is the first step. Learn over time to treat yourself gently. You are on a journey of experiencing life. So just do that. Experience life and try not to cry over spilt milk. Keep piling on your life experiences and when one of them feels right it will last for a while.