I don't know where to turn
I have been married to my husband for 8 months. Things were great at first, but recently I don't feel like he loves me anymore. We fight all the time. He picks on me constantly. I am so tired of walking on egg shells. I feel like I have anxiety all the time. He seems to get mad at everything I say. If I don't talk, it's wrong too. It's like no matter what I do, it is wrong. Sometimes I just can't take it anymore when I am being picked on and guess what? It is my fault. It is always my fault. I'm tired of trying to think before I speak. Sometimes I just want to be myself and just talk, but it always ends up in a fight. I do everything I can to make him happy. I cook, clean, and even stay at home and raise his 3 kids like they are my own. He tells me I don't try, but I try so hard and it's just not good enough. I have no family and I really don't have any friends. I have no one to talk to, but him. Sometimes I want to leave, but I am a stay at home mom. I have no money and no one to turn to. I just wish he would love me like I love him. Often I think about just ending it all, but I can't leave my 2 children who would be lost without me. I just try to make it one day at a time, but it's getting harder and harder. My husband makes me feel all alone. So I guess my question is what does a person do in my situation? Do I just stay where I am or what other solution is there? Help me please.