My boyfriend died 3 weeks ago of an overdose. We went to sleep in eachothers arms and I woke up still in his arms. I realized when he wouldn't wake up and I felt nothing with my head on his chest that he was not breathing. I tried CPR, I tried everything I could think of while I waited for the ambulence to come. When they came they told me they found pills in his pocket and that he had been gone for a few hours. I knew he had his issues we lived together for 4 years and he always had the issue, I sent him to rehab so many times and he was leaving again the next day. I know his mom gave him those pills she was always his enabler, and I despise her for it, especially because she gets everything of his that was mine or ours because I'm not his wife. I'm angry, I cry randomly, I have not been able to sleep without waking up from dreaming of him, I have thrown myself into my work, and I cannot stop having dreams. I do not know what to do, can anyone give me a suggestion?
