Sorry if all of this is just paranoia or something. I'm usually a rational composed person but recently my health has worried me a great deal. To start I am:

A male
20 years old
30 pounds over weight (according to being 6 foot 3) (230 pounds)
And I have never been to the doctor since I had the chicken pocks (before kindergarten) nor do I have any money what so ever to see a doctor.
I have only been sexual active with one girl in my life and she had never cheated on my physically so ruling out anything like that hopefully.
I also take no medication, dad's side has a history of diabetics (I haven't had any problems that I know of yet)

Ever since I was a small boy I've had pain in my: wrists, neck, back, ancles and jaw. The pain is not recurring or sharp pain, but more of a presence that its always there. Maybe its just normal for everyone. Stretching it and popping the joint mades the pain go away less and feel good for about 10 seconds. An aquatintce of mine (that has chronic joint pain) claims this is not normal.

I've been typing and typing since I was in early middle school (before the pain started) and do not get a lot of exercise. A lot of people tell me "oh thats growing pains" and it worked when I was 10, but now I'm not so sure. Also I have terrible posture and bad eating habits. Anyway continuing.

According to my father in middle school (up to today) I've had these small red spots on my foot. I've noticed them recently more (senor year of high school) up until now my 3rd year out of high school. They are not elevated (unless I scratched them till they bleed and form small scabs) The itching comes and goes but when it goes the itch is unbearable. At first I thought it was a reaction to grass like an allergy but I don't think that is the case as I hardly go outside. The itch is mostly on the center bottom, total top and on the tibula.

I've tried some creams but nothing has worked (cant recall the creams names as they were a friend of a friends)

Moving on. There is one thing that has really bothered me about my neck. And if anything I'd want to figure this out. Sometimes I hear this noise INSIDE my neck. Its like a fizzing sound that dies down.

Another thing I'd like to find out (this really hurts btw) I have a sneezing attack every 1 to 3 months. During this sneezing attack it usually ends with me discharging blood from my nose and the attack ending.

I also have Chest pains every 3-6 months

The first time this happened (the only time it was very bad) I felt like I was dying. It was during my sophomore year of high school during a movie and for some reason I just didn't say a word. I fell over in pain in my desk and held my chest till the end of class where I had almost recovered. During this time I was going through a huge depression from my real girlfriend dumping me for someone else. I also had a good friend die in the same week. With both of these I have heard that there was a possibility I had a heart attack from stress. I also heart about "Takotsubo cardiomyopathy" or broken heart syndrome that might have been the cause.

After this it happened about 3 years later when I was doing manual labor for a store. I came home (never having a problem before during work) and my chest began to hurt badly. I informed someone and told them I'd try and sleep it off. The pain lingered for the rest of that day and finally left. Besides these two big cases the rest were just simply minor uncomforts.

During this time I was working 8 hours a night, alone, thinking about my next girlfriend. I had been with her almost 4 years (around the time my first chest indecent) I found out she was cheating on me and during those 8 hours I would think about all the chao effect and how things could be different, I thought about all the things that were wrong in my life. What I could have done to change them. And why this was happening to me. This is why I come back to the idea of the stress effecting my heart muscles.

The only time during all of these events that I ate very healthy was only a 2 week window about 2 years ago. I focused my whole time (because of the vast amounts of time waiting for school and a job call back) to getting in shape. I would wake up, eat some toast with peanut butter, sometimes 2 eggs, take a walk with spiriting for about 2 miles. Come back, do 100 sit ups, 1600 high kicks, 1600 punches, run in place, taking breaks about every 400. Drinking plenty of water with lemon in it. Do a hike up the mountain near my house, come home, eat a small healthy dinner, and drink plenty of water.

During those two weeks I lost 20 pounds. Not a healthy way but a fast effective way. Probably too fast as I have fallen out of the trends. Now I have gained 10 pounds of it back (230 now) and I am starting to eat good again.

About 2-3 weeks ago (losing track of time because of the summer) I started eating semi healthy again but all this time I experience diarrhea or at least not any fully solid waist. And excuse this but sometimes it appears yellowish brown like baby food. Don't know if this is realivant what so ever.

So in all:

I'm 20 years old. I don't know if any of this is real or just my worrying getting the best of me. I'm not scared to admit I hate the thought of death. Ever since I was little I felt like my body was different from other peoples and I was scared about it. I don't know if any of these things I am experiencing are truly urgent things, but if someone could give me their two cent of a very lose diagnosis I'd be very very very very! Appreciative.

If any additional details are needed then please ask for them.

Thanks

~Hugo Strange

Do you have anyone to confide in? Are you physically active at all - involved in a sport or recreational passtime? What do you do with your free time and are you working at all now?

From what you have written I definitely feel that stress is a factor in the way you are feeling. However, I doubt that it is causing you heart symptoms (yet) because if it was you wouldn't worry about the cost of getting medical attention... you would just do it.

I believe that you are suffering from some type of anxiety related disorder. You are at an age when your emotions can really grab hold of you physically. It is very important that you have an outlet for your stresses. If you seriously can't see a medical doctor at this time I would suggest that you do the following things:

1. If you don't work already, get a job... preferably something that will keep you very busy - too busy to think & worry.
2. Find a healthy physical outlet for your stress that you can do once or twice a week. Ideas: join a gym, hiking, rock climbing, volleyball, baseball, soccer... something like that.
3. Get involved with a charitable cause in some way. Do volunteer work, raise money, do a walk-a-thon, etc.
4. Research online if there are any free mental health clinics in your area then make an appointment with one.

If your health issues are anxiety related and you don't get appropriate help you run the risk of this not only becoming a serious mental health issue, but also a health-related one. There are also medications that you might be prescribed that can ease the anxiousness so that it's more manageable and less likely to become a life-long problem. If I am correct, a good therapist can help you be a lot happier and healthier. If there is any way possible, please speak to your Dr. about all of this and perhaps he/she can refer you to someone who can help you sort through this very quickly.

Hugs, Didi

Thank you for your quick reply! No at the moment I do not have a job or work out. I just got out of my classes at college and I'm pretty stress free at the moment, I've cut off contact with my ex recently (because A she's crazy, B she wants me to spend time with her C I feel like a leech because I have no money D... thats my ex that cheated on me? Why was I hanging out with her) I have wonderful friends I can talk to about my problems so hopefully I won't have to pay the premiums of a therapist ; D
After I got out school all I've been doing is laying around and doing nothing waiting for call backs from places I've applied to.Hopefully I can find I clinics around here, I'll have to look into it. I'd really want to know that the 'fizzing' sound is inside my neck. I fear it could be some kind of spinal deficiency or something or the sort.
Maybe I should get involved in the church again, they love my agnostic self haha I used to help out all the time. It was an interesting exp

Anyone else have any suggestions? : )

Yes, one does not run a 10 mile marathon if they have not started even jogging.

1. get a good balanced diet
2. start with easy exercise and add more every 3 or 4 days. Try walking a mile a day and then add more distant.
Then start jogging 1/2 mile and walking rest and keep adding to it.

3. You may have something like asthma or even a allergy to some foods, without some medical tests it is hard to say.

You can have heart pain from asthma?