I always feel really fat and sad and lonely
Almost every day I wake up and feel OK but then I remember I have to go to school. I used to love going to school, but now I always feel really lonely and like I've pushed away my old friends that I ditched for popular friends that I'm not really close to. I feel terrible because my old friends still like me but I was such a jerk to them. I always feel really fat and I think I'm just trying to convince myself that I have all these feelings because I'm fat and then I pig out on food and feel like a pig, so I excersice a lot for like hours or sometimes try to starve myself so I look nicer. I need help but I don't want to tell my mom or dad.