I feel so confused about life right now, my mom is in the hospital very sick and I'm so worried about every aspect of that, my boyfriend doesn't know how to be caring and he doesn't know what to say, I don't have any friends, I hate my job and boss and I feel all alone when all I need is someone to hold me and tell me everything is going to be all right. I don't know what to do and all I feel like doing is crying or having no emotions at all. I don't know what to do.. I don't know what to do, I'm losing my mind, I'm forgetting little things, like yesterday I was late to work because I missed my exit off the freeway, I take the same exit 5 days a week, I just missed it, I saw it but I just said damn I missed my exit. I have been getting bad headaches and every time I blow my nose there is blood, I don't know what wrong, there was a bllod clot even, and all I can think is what if something is wrong, and then well it doesn't matter because my mom is sick, I have a job to do, where is my boyfriend, what is going on? Some one please telll me... I really think I'm going crazy..

Well in my opinion,life is full of these challenging times,however people do rely on other people for help. It does sound like depression,and this should not be shrugged off as something you can deal with yourself. There is places where you can talk to qualified people and it doesn't cost a penny. Im sure you feel that your main priority is to your mother, and that's completely understandable, but if you don't take care of yourself as well, you won't be able to stay positive around her. Not to mention you should say it to your boyfriend, he should be there for you at all times, good or bad, and if he isn't the kind of guy that expresses his emotions then explain that for this 1 time can he stop thinking of himself and think of you.

And remember, things will get better, they may not seem like they will at this moment in time, but they will. My advice is if you are offered any anti-depressants don't take them, they only offer short term relief. Especially avoid valium, it can lead to worse roads. Keep your chin up and don't be afraid to ask for help, because you will find it.

I'm real sorry about your mom and your unhappy situation. I can relate with you. I've been there - a lot of people have.
I've taken notice in my own situations that I have to dig deep within myself and depend on my own will to find ways to make myself feel better. Depending on others to bring me peace never happened and always ended in greater disappointment.
Your boyfriend should show you support by being there for you through your difficult times by leanding an ear, but depending on him to tell you everything is going to be OK may be a little out of his reach. Can you at least talk about your worries and stresses with him? Will he listen? Sometimes getting things off your chest helps a lot.
You probably have so much going on in your mind right now which makes it hard to concentrate and think clearly - probably the reason why you've been so forgetful lately.
I wouldn't add to your worries by thinking something's wrong with you. The bloody nose could be contributed to dry air caused by heating (furnace,etc).
If you don't have a vaporizer, investing $10 in one is very beneficial for dry sinuses. I run one in my bedroom and one in each of my children's rooms every night.
As far as your job goes, if you're that unhappy with it, is it impossible to find a new job? Is a new job considerable?
Best wishes,
Kae

AK is very right about the dryness causing bloody noses... my first thought when you mentioned it.

You are NOT going crazy!. try talking to your boyfriend but don't be upset with him if he can't be what you need him to be through this... sometimes some people just don't have the ability to help the way we think they should...
Try to take time to take a deep breath, hold it then let it out quite slowly... remind yourself that you are NOT going crazy and you will get through this... try to keep as much routine in your life as possible... even if you hate your job, just try to keep it the status quo for now... you have something you cannot control that has majorly disrupted your life, now is not the time to make any other life changing decisions... know what I mean?

I wish I could give you a big hug right now... you're "here"... we're "here"... *big hug*

I am very sorry your mom is feeling poorly. It's nromal to be in denial when a loved one is taken ill. Its how our mind protects us from the shock. You are by far not selfish but rather caring. That's why you are reacting the way you are.
Just take it one day at a time and keep informed by talking to the doctors.