I met this guy after a ten yr abusive bad relationship. I never thought id meet someone that was the total opposite. I was so happy. We never made anything officail but just being together all the time everyday I fell in love and obviously the feelings were not mutual. The situation was diff he had no kids I had one I'm more mature and stable than he was. I felt like I intimidated him or he wasn't ready, but the chemistry was so there. It ended having something to do with his first love and its been months I did the nc thing I did everything to move on no call no text no thing I haven't talked to him in months but for some reason I'm sad sometimes when I think about it. I mean he would never be the man I wanted I didn't see us with any future its just that I was happy for the first time in my life and now I can't seem to get it right with men now. Like anything just turns me away. I cry sometime because of both my first relationship because I endured so much and because of him . And I refuse to be unhappy and dogged and play the back and forth. I let it go. Now I'm just scorned. I mean just because I get sad and think about them the pain doesn't mean I have to be in love or want that person deos it? Normally I am a one woman kind of woman and have a friend that's the kind of man every woman wants but not emotionally/physically atrracted and if he in my life or not it wouldn't matter to me one way or another. Like what's happening to me?