I'm 19, I'm happy whenever I'm with my boyfriend but its like the second we leave each other I'm miserable and depressed and lonely again. I live with my sister and her family but I stay in my room most of the day just too depressed and emotionally exhauseted to get up. I don't have many friends because I don't have the energy to get up and do things with them but as soon as my boyfriend suggests we hang out I'm right on it. I do believe I'm bipolar I believe I have a bad case of anxeity disorder. I have a small part time job trying to save money for a ticket I have 500 bucks but I'm addicted to spending every penny I have its hard to save which means I can't drive until I pay it. I feel like everyday I'm getting worse and worse. I hate not seeing my boyfriend I'm not happy where I live I'm not happy not driving or that I don't get enough hours at work. I don't know what to do I feel so hopeless and helpless that I feel ending my life would be so much better. I know the future will be better but I'm not all right with spending my current days so hurt. Advice?

I’m sorry you feel so down and alone. But there is no one out there who can make you feel happy. Only you can do that. You must find something that interests you. Life doesn’t just get good all by itself. We must take responsibility for our own life and do whatever it takes to make it feel good.

What you are experiencing is being Co-Dependent. Be careful as this can lead to several other issues in the future, maybe join a group that can help you with this, think about what would happens if he was to leave you?

This group is all over the United States, maybe it would be wise to check out this website: http://www.coda.org/

Good Luck,
Javi