How do I get over an ex when I have to see him for life??
I might have to make a very big decision tomorrow. My boyfriend has not been very relible over the past year and a half, I have forgiven him over and over again and I keep getting let down. Last night he went out with a bunch of friends and he is still not home, I'm pregnant and he knows we've an appointment in the maternity hospital tomorrow. We don't have to go often and its hurting so much more that he might be letting me and our baby down for a bunch of people that don't like me or have ever welcomed me when we got together.
From his track record there is not much hope of him showing up to support me tomorrow, I will have to go alone. It's the second weekend in a row I've been crying, it stresses me out intensely when he does these things. (there is so much more he has done to this relationship than I can ever say) I want to break up with him if he doesn't show up because I know in my heart it will happen again and I want to stick to this decision, I'm tired of crying.
Its always easier to forgive him because it means I don't have to go through having to be broken hearted for weeks and months, it also means I don't have to go through my pregnancy alone and I'm scared I won't find anyone again and I will be alone with my baby while he goes out get out of his face with other girls. Its ruining my experience being pregnant. I already have depression and anxiety and I can't take my medication until the baby is born.
Obviously I can't follow the no contact rule because we now share a baby, so how do I get over him if I end it?