After 3 years I'm devastated
Hey all,
2 days ago my girlfriend of nearly 3 years broke up with me. I just don't know what to do.
A year ago some mates of mine were planning on taking a trip overseas, they are all single and it was 3 of them. At first I was excited cause I wanted to go so bad but my girlfriend at the time didn't have the funds to go so I held back. I told my girlfriend I wanted to go then later on I said I wasn't bothered and now did not feel like going which I didn't
A few months later I asked them about it again and they had told me they just booked it the day before and at that point my brain popped, I wanted to go badly. In conclusion I booked the holiday without my girlfriend, a few months later we had received a lump sum of cash from an accident we were in and she had more then enough to go though she was under 21. From the day I bought the ticket she cried constantly and hated me, as we drew closer to the day I was going away she was shaking me for answers, asking me why.
I had to go out one afternoon about a month before I was going away, I came home and she had all her stuff packed except her computer, she was breaking up with me then. I begged her to stay and we ended up just making up, she spoke to her sister and got some advice. Her sister told her to support him, tell him he should enjoy himself and you'll be here when you get back.
Anyway I went away but I came home about 2 weeks early cause I knew she was too distraught and this cost me a bit. Then it started about 1 month after I got back or about 2 months ago she started to break up with me after work, saying I can't do this, I can't believe you, Why did you do this, but I would talk to her and we would be together again. One time I said OK and went home for a few hours. She ended up asking me to come to dinner at hers and I didn't but went over a little later. We got back together.
The following week she came over to mine after I finished work and told me its over. She wouldn't speak to me and I couldn't stop contacting her. I then at the end of the week saw her at a party and we hooked up and got back together. Then the same thing "I can't do this anymore its killing me, my heads not right and I dont know who I am" has been going on for a few weeks, we had another huge break up 2 weeks ago, I didn't contact her and she called me early in the morning and we got back together. 2 days ago she did it again but this time she won't contact me and has blocked me from Facebook after a not so bad break up. I didn't know she wouldn't contact and block me, it just seemed she need lots of space. But now its serious.
Sorry to rant, but if feels good.
What should I do, I know she loves me when she is herself, we have absolutely great memories, only last week we went on a small kayaking day and it was lovely. I just don't understand usually she calls by now but nothing. Today I'm going to stop contacting her. I just need some advice.
I can't find an edit button but our 3rd year is on the 25th right after Easter which is in a few days and I wanted to get her something special and go away. I don't think the going away will happen but should I send her flowers/chocolates for our 3rd year even though this is happening? Maybe just saying hoping your OK?