Hi. I met my girlfriend in 20th grade and dated her throughout high school. I am in college now. We were in so much love and everything was just great. Everyone told us we were going to get married and they have never seen such a great relashionship. Since Christmas or even a little before she started to be weird. About a week before I came home for spring break we got in a fight that I didn't even know the reason for. We agreed that we needed to talk when I came home and set a time. When we talked she laughed through it and finally at the end kind of got serious. We went away for the weekend and she was very weird. 3 days later she broke up with me. It has impacted me so much. I know I am young and this is the first break up I ever have but we loved each other so much. She said she lost feelings for me. I just don't see how that would happen when we were deeply in love. I have done my best of NC but 4 weeks ago she texted me and it went on for a day. Then she deleted me from Facebook and stopped talking. I was doing OK and then she emailed me Monday and we emailed the whole day and it turned bad. I don't understand why she keeps texting/e-mailing. She knows how much of a mess I am and she said she wants me to get over her and move on. She says she is happier then ever. I get so depressed during certain times. I have worked so hard and read so much of how to get over it. But everyday it will pop up in my head or I'll have a dream at night. I can't stand being this depressed and the horrible feelings I get day by day. It's affecting me in college and my health. I just have put so much work into getting over this but I still feel like my hearts ripped out. I feel like I'll never find a girlfriend etc. Does anyone have any advice? I hope I am not coming across as a nutcase. Thank you if you read all of this sorry it was so long.