We planned a family but things are not working...
I have been with my boyfriend for 5 years, its taken a while but we now have a house together and things have been great, so when I turned 30 last year I said I wanted to start a family and I felt our relationship was stable and we are financially secure only things at the back of my mind was the fact we were not married. However I can't wait much longer and wait for him to propose as its not the be all and end all.
Anyway 8 months had passed as February this year we found out I was pregnant we were both very happy, excited and worried all different emotions. However 3/4 weeks ago we had a huge row and he smash stuff up in the house and its was scary, he was drunk but the whole things was so unlike him. Since then things have gone from bad to worse and we are not getting on. He is drinking more than usual and talks to me like I am a piece of dirt. I just don't get it? He has never been like this before, I am trying to put it down to the fear of us having a baby but I now am feeling I don't want it. All the reasons for having a baby are now gone. I feel there are major cracks in our relationship things are not right and I want to leave, I am 11 weeks and 4 days pregnant, first scan is on Monday. I am so confused I don't want to bring this child into this world as a single mum. Maybe I am making a drama out of nothing and should I blame it all on the pregnancy. I need some advice before I make the wrong decision. We have family also coming this Sunday to make the big announcement but I don't want anyone to know in case I have an abortion, please help??