I was with this girl for 4 yrs and it was a sloppy relationship( by sloppy I mean off and on) the time came when she said she didn't want to be with me anymore cause she said she felt like an "old couple" I really didn't care at that point cause I though it was going to be like all the other times when we broke - fight,talk things out in a couple of weeks , get back together- but when a friend told me she was with some other guy I flip! I couldn't believe it I called her she wouldn't pick up I realized she didn't want me anymore and I tried to kill myself more than once I stayed in my room for 3 days straight no food no shower just me crying and thinking about her I soon became obsess I would call and call and text her so much she would just reply "**** OFF" but I couldn't help it I was such a mess I want to make things right with her still but even after all the **** I put myself threw I love her and as much as I hate to admit it I would do anything for her
I don't call or text her anymore( even though just the thought of her voice makes me happy ) I don't want to get like how I was cause I know I would really hurt myself but I want her back in my life so bad what do I do I've already looked up **** on the Internet but I'm already doing that stuff and none of it makes me happy or feel good about myself smoking k2 makes it all go away though but coming out of my high my problem I don't want to rely on a drug to get me there this but it seems like the only thing to do when nobody cares to listen to you I want to be happy but she's the only thing that can make me happy... please help I'm still a mess

I think you are depressed and should go see your doctor.

Relying on drugs is sheer stupidity,and you need help to break this vicious circle.

So get help and get better.

amicon is 100% correct, although most people will suffer from depression at least once in their life, some people need that extra help to come out of it and I think your this person.

This whole relationship issue is just a classic case of " you dont know what you've got until its gone".

Its important that you accept this is over! For good! But don't think just because its over that your life has to stop! The only way is up now! And believe me when I say I know exactly how your feeling, I'm bipolar (a form of depression) and I have been in your shoes many many times before, so please trust our advice and go to your doctor and tell him/her everything! Don't be ashamed, it happens to us all and once you get yourself to take that step then your on your way!

Hey, Vpoop. So I agree with amicon and adviceishere. Whether it was four years on and off or two years strong and then a sudden problem, I believe that when the girl just takes up seeing another guy so quickly and won't even want to talk it out or even answer your call- I believe she isn't worth your time anymore. Maybe before but not now. I've been in the same situation except I had the "two years strong". She fell for another guy and dropped me quickly. She wouldn't answer a call or anything. If you really do still love her, and she doesn't want you then just try and be happy for her or just say she missed out on you. Because it's true! Look at the odds. It's her (one girl) and there are countless numbers of far, far better choices, my friend. When love won't work out in one place then go to the next. If it doesn't work out there then don't go hunting for love. You'll have someone much better :] hope I helped even a little and didn't make you upset.

You could help yourself a lot by seeing what else there is in life besides a girl who doesn't want you any more. At least you have made progress by realizing that hurting yourself is not the answer, and that's something.

Now take a shower, and explore your world, and find some happiness for yourself without her. Its out there if you look for it.