My violent druggo schizophrenic father be to blame for my anxiety & tremours?
I've recently been getting tested for an answer as to why I get really bad hand tremours, I'm currently on propranolol ( post traumatic stress pills) and they seem to help.. I was wondering if this could've been caused by my deadbeat schizophrenic father being on speed & many other drugs when I was conceived and up to 2 years old. I get nervous very easily sometimes or get the shakes for no reason, I think it could be anxiety but I'm not sure as I've had this for as long as I can remember. Sometimes I can get really emotional, very low confidence etc :/ he was also extremely violent towards my mother and had hit her while she was pregnant with me and also holding me as an infant.. I get the shakes thinking about what he did.. I don't have any memory of what happened I'm not sure if I have mentally blocked it out from my memory, but myolder sister remembers and she has anger problems at times. I feel stupid for seeing this as a problem because his no longer in my life and there is people with a lot worse problems out there then m and I'm lucky to have my life how it is now. I'm almost 18 and I'm sick of these feelings and hand tremours :/ I do remember when I was younger I was very attatched to my mum as I would worry someone was going to hurt her. Could someone please give me some advice on what they think?