I am the age of 20 and I experience bad thoughts in death and wanting to cut myself. The last time I have ever cut myself on the wrist was at 16 and 17. I sometimes hate my life, the way I look and myself at times. I even thought about taking sleeping pills to end it all. Sometimes, I think I am fat and ugly a lot.

Plus, I mostly isolate myself from the world and always stay in my room at all cost. I choose to not make friends, go on dates, to the mall or movies, and even go out to the park.

Yes. That sure sounds like depression. I recently took a depression test and those questions where on it, the doctor said if I had answered the questions like you just did that would have meant I had a serious case of depression. Im not an expert but I would suggest getting tested. It doesn't hurt(: Hope everything works out, keep strong.

Well, I don't know how you look and I don't even know your name but I do know that God made every human beautiful... not everyone see's the beauty in you. I have had some of these same problems, but I got through it and you can too. Like I said I don't know how you look but I know that you are beautiful and smart and I encourage you to talk to someone that you can trust... and sometimes it is easier to talk to a stranger, I find it easy because the people that know you may judge you!Please do not take any pills, your family and friends will hurt more than you are hurting now! Please do not hurt yourself... you may ask why do I care... but I truly care for anyone who is hurting and is asking for help. You just have to open up and talk to someone who can help you! It sounds more like built up anger and low self-esteem rather than depression. So please keep your head up and I don't know your name but God knows you and I can still pray for you! Be Blessed :-)