I need to talk to someone about this relationship.
I usually don't develop many friendships within my classroom, since I think most of my mates are stupid and idiots, etc. Anyway I developed a really deep friendship with a girl I liked, who also considered the others the same way I did. I told her I liked her, she rejected me, but still we did move on. We became best friends. Anyway, while we were in school she kept moving away from me because I sent her some kind of pain waves while we were together and she spent more time with the "idiots and ignorants" (her own words) than with me. When we were on the same table we never talked even when I tried and when I was complemeting her drawings she always told me to stop.
When she was with others, the exactly opposite.
Now, without no sign of warning, our friendship is over. She just texted me saying it was over and never talked to me again since then. On the first few days after she did that, I was doing everything to know the "why" but then I realised I was crawling after her and I just gave up. I tried to forget my feelings, memmories, etc. And I do actually think I did.
Anyway, when I see her every day at school, talking with people, enjoying life, I get so annoyed like I've never got. As I am sitting next to her I can see her chatting with people that were on the same place I was before, showing them the draws, accepting the complements, smiling... Everything she has never done with me. And even when I'm not near her I can't control myself to stop looking at her at least for 10 minutes!
And it's so damn annoying! I just don't know what to do anymore. I believe it's destroing my inside. All the answers I've had so far say me to pray or to meet new people: I'm agnostic and I have friends. Lots of them. Just not inside my classroom. 2 completely different worlds.
It's getting so annoying facing her everyday and going through the same feelings again, and again, and again... And thinking "where did I go wrong/what did I do?/have I forgotten her already?". The answer is still the same for all of them: I don't know!
Please help me!
(Can you ignore my spelling mistakes too, please? ;P)
Comment on Wondergirl's post
Yea... It was cool at the start we could talk, go to cinema, etc.
But after a while we could only talk to each other using text messages. I kept telling her that it wouldn't work but she never listened to me. It was kind of hard to keep a friendship by a phone but I gave it a try...
Comment on adviceishere's post
Because the people in my class are either people who spent their time studying and don't talk to anyone... people who are always after girls and have no chance to talk... people who are always playing Game Boy alone... people that make fun of me... people that are drug addicts.. people who drink all time.. Nothing like me.
Comment on talaniman's post
Thanks that was useful :D
Anyway I'm still kind of worried because now I know (as I always thougt I knew) that I can't have a deep deep friendship with someone I like and now I don't know how to speak to her since I'm used to "hello; how are you; aren't you ok? what's happening?" and then it goes on and on... :P