I have taken many depression tests online. The one I took to day on about.com told me that I answered 9 out of 10 question and I could have clinical depression. Others that I have taken say that I am at a high likely hood of suffering from sever depression. 3 of the test sad that “I am might be at risk for harming myself, and that I am advised to see my doctor or a mental h professional immediately for a complete evaluation or dial 911 or call 1800 273talk or go immediately to the nears hospital for an evaluation.”
So I was hoping that some one else wooud tell me what they think I should do if I told them my story.Oh and I am sorry for the bad spelling I have severe dyslexia. I am 18 years old and I went a way to school to try and become preschool techer.Well I found out the hard way that was not my smarts' move. My first semester, I had to change rooms 2 times had to go to hospital ones, met a boy that ,want to take advantage of me, and broke up with me when he code not have his way and because of the dies tans in our relationship. I don't have any friend her at school and because my spelling so bad and I was only babul to get help from one person for only ½ of my paper and the rest I had to finish on my ones I was excepted of plagersum. That was not fun. So I decide to go back to school that want to kick me out. They let me back in on academic probation and I am still having tubule. I don't have a job. I was thinking of finish this semester and then going back to the boce school by my home . But I could tell that if I do that my sound of my parent and family's voc that they would all be disappoint in me evethoug they say they won't. I hate it because I know they know how started I am and that make them more started. And my dad's been having a hard time at work my brother want to finish bucks he all ways told e me “don't be like me and flunk out .you will get a job that you hate.” I also fell that then I have waste all this time and moony I can't get back. Yet I know that staying her not good for me I don't eat much food because every time I eat I fell as if I am going to throw up. I have dune 4 very poorly planned attempt of suisede, and have even stared hurting myself. Which I know is not good. What should I do?

Nicole,

The information you provide follows a predictable pattern. Clinical (major) Depression is a disabling condition. It severely impairs your decision making capability, your ability to concentrate and process information.

I commend you for recognizing the need for help. For taking the initiative to self-test and explore your emotions.

Now, you must act on the information you have developed. Step 1, is to contact one of the resources you discovered. Also, here is a link to Depression and Bipolar Association. This site provides on-line support, direction to support groups in your area, and other services.

It is my opinion that a live voice is vastly preferable to on-line communication. You need someone to express your thoughts to. Someone that understands the dynamics of depression and that can directly respond to your particular needs and concerns.

I also understand that that first step in reaching out, exposing your problem to another is difficult. Telephone communication affords anonymity if that is your concern.

You will probably be pleasantly surprised at how quickly things begin to fall in-line, at the widespread availability of help and the number of people that have suffered through and recovered from the same complex of emotions. But it is overcoming that first obstacle and making contact with a live knowledgeable individual.

Your school and social problems are almost assuredly a result of the depression you described. As you begin to address the underlying condition the grades, friends, anxiety, self-destructive ideas will recede.

Please take the time to make that initial contact... speak to another person about your problems, just as you have outlined them here. If the above group isn't to your liking, just let us know and we'll find another.

Where are you from? Here there are many programs that offer help for dyslexia. Many schools have programs for people with special needs and you can even get outside help. You definitely need to see a therapist because you are dealing with a lot and need someone to talk too.