Did something bad, got something bad, now what?
I have been w/my boyfriend for 9 years. We've had our problems, major ones are things like his cheating, porn and online personals(not meeting anyone in person). Years ago I caught him looking at porn and after about 2 years of patience, he seemed to have kicked the habit. I don't agree with porn for many reasons andI really don't think it could ever do anything positive for our relationship. I'm no prude, I love having sex with him, I'm the one who wants sex all the time, he could have it once a week and be fine, it's been like that always, just the way he is, just the way I am.
So first it was porn, then it went to online personals but never meeting anyone in person, then it went to meeting women in person and finally it escalated to full blown cheating.
I trust my instincts ALWAYS, they have NEVER failed me. I found out about all the things just because of a strong thought or feeling. He is veru surprised when he discovers that I have found out about his wrong doings.
We've stayed together and I have decided to trust him, finally, it's taken forever. It's so hard letting go of things like that, but I'm not one to hold onto grudges.
Things have been really good between us the last few months, but the past week I've had that old familiar feeling. So today I did something I should have, looked through his history on his computer and like I thought, I found lots of porn and 1 site, Cupid.com. I can guess what his user name and password would be, not to hard. I found he'd just turned his profile off/hidden.
So, natrually I feel hurt and I also know I've crossed major boundries by checking in history, some would say I got what I deserved for checking, and that maybe true too... My question is, what should I do? Tell him what I've done and what I found out, not say anything and accept that this is how things are going to be(I don't want to live with these things), or what?
Any feedback would be great, thanks so much!