Survivors of suicide: Dealing with the loss of a loved one.

I have. Two years ago, my mother and I were in Hawaii - I took her there for Mother's Day since she had never been. She had been diagnosed with severe Fibromyalgia and Bipolar disorder. Long story short, she ended up overdosing on prescription pills and I found her the next morning, blue and dead. I tried CPR and of course called 911 immediately, they followed up with the CPR, had me leave the room. She had 2 letters for me and was holding a Bible with a photo of me when I was a child.

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