I've had a family member sexualy assult me since I was 12 I'm now 16 I've never told any of my family they wouldn't believe me I can't handle it anymore I feel like killing myself just to make all this pain stop I don't want to hurt my family but I don't know what else to do

So hey won't believe you, so what, who cares, tell them, they may, some will, some won't, but you will tell

Tell your teachers, tell your religious leader, tell your family.
It is only a secret and they may be doing it to others,

You think its easy just to tell them well its not how am I suppose to say ha guess what he's been doing to me for the last 4 years and what did I do nothing I just let it happen you have no idea I've tried to tell its not that easy to say if I tell it will ruin ppls lifes not just his if I wasn't such a coward I would just end my life then it would be over

Easy no, required, needed, yes.

So it is hard, is it easy being or getting abused ? They have you convinced and made you into a victim it is time to take some control back. If it is public, they have lost their control over you.

And what a bull, you want to end your life, but not talk to someone. And that would not ruin allot of lives,

So write it all down and email everyone. Tell it to a school counselor, just report it, get it over with and start getting help to deal with what has happened.

Don't think, don't play out a 1000 things that could happen, deal with what is happening now and get that to stop

You need to seek help, right away! This is something you can hide forever, you need to think about yourself. What their doing is not right, their in the wrong, not you! Who cares if you have waited to say something, I've known people to wait ten years before opening up about it. You're true family and friends will support you through it all, and if not.. It just comes to show who they are. You have more than a right to come out about this. Like posted above, tell someone outside of your family if you're worried they won't believe you.. This way you know for sure something will get done.

Ending your life isn't a solution to ANYTHING, it's just going to hurt more people in the end. Let alone, you'll be wasting the amazing future you have ahead. This is just one obstacle in your life, you're only 16.. And although it's a big one, you'll get through it. You need to tell someone so you can get help, and heal and move on.