I'm 22yrs old and I'm married with one son that is not my husbands. @ first when we got married he was very good to me he I was so and love with him and l couldn't see mysel with no 1 else but him but then he changed on me and he started drinking and lashing out at me he started no communicating with me and no matter how I begged him for his attention his attention he still would treat me As if I wasn't there he started smoking being violent towards me I started catching him and lies. I looked thought his phone witch is something I shouldn't of done I saw where he had be talking to several different women his very sneaky and lies endlessly.. He really fooled me as I he was this good guy he said he didn't smoke drink he was in to church he wanted to be married and he loved me I don't feel loved in this relationship I'm hurting inside I feel lost. I feel like I need him and I have no where else to go I don't have a job I have the worst luck its seems lime every thing in my life goes wrong my family had always treated Me like I was an outsider my mother has abused me as a child she gave me to my grandparents after and incident where she had beat me up side my head with a belt and the belt buckle put a deep gash in my head she acts like she never did anything to me to this day lime she never hurt me or scared me vie been though the worst of things and I'm only 22 I just need a break though In life I'm tierd of being down.