I cheated, she left me, but asked me not to leave her life forever??
Hi,
Basically we dated for 2 years on and off and she was madly in love with me, I never really fully committed to her and cheated on her twice with my ex (before her) girlfriend. She was devastated but still tried to make it work and trust me until just over month ago where she said she can't do it nomore, as I never really did much to build trust I would just argue when she questioned me.
I have had plenty of relationships but after losing her I have realised how much I really love her, & I know I don't deserve her but I know I can treat her right if she gave me that chance.
She has been very clear she can't be with me, the bad memories really hurt her & don't go out her mind, but doesn't want to lose me out her life & wants to be friends!
Anyway she has my fb passwords and goes on it everyday to see what I'm up to who I speak to etc but contacts me every other day with random chit chat. Didn't speak to her for 4days (longest since breakup) and she rang me yday as I changed my passwords and I just said what's the point how can I forget u when u have it I get false hope thinking if u want to know my business u might want me back and that I can't remain friends until I'm trully over u. she texted me that she cried all yday nightt and day as she missed me but doesn't think she can trust anyone and is scared to date anyone and get hurt again and she wants me to be happy..
I replied saying I want u to be happy what can I do? She said "forget me, but not the good times we had, if we are meant to talk & be friends later in life it will happen, leave it to god"
I really want her back so I have tried to be friends let her know I can be loyal (give my passwords etc) but nothing has changed, should I stay friends and hope she eventually changes her mind or walk away? Even if I walk away I know I will constantly hope she contacts me..
Please help I feel remorse for how I hurt her and love her so much..
Finally I know its silly considering my situation but I got her name tattoed on my chest but I don't know if I should tell her or not..
Thank you for reading..