Can you help me understand?
My ex broke up with me a year ago. We have a 9 year old daughter. I have never love anyone like I loved him. We were together for 9 years: the first 6 years were long distance. We never married nor lived together but he is not the one to blame. At first, I was too young and wasn't ready to let go of my single life style. I've always believe there is time for everything: men and women should enjoy their youth instead of marrying at a young age. Anyway, during our long distance he cheated on me once. Soon after, I cheated as payback. However, I was not able to forget his betrayal and wasn't able to trust him the same. Later due to him wanting us to get together I ended up moving close to him and buy me more time. I was away from family and felt lonely and ended up accepting to marry him; although new I was still not ready. I was afraid to lose him. But managed to buy more time. Eventually he comes and breaks up with me. Later I find out it was for someone else whom he started a relationship with several months prior to our break up. So yeah he cheated again and to be honest I had a one night stand during the last year. I still can't get over the betrayal and I guess what makes it worse is knowing they are planning to get married. I don't know if its love or obsession but I can't seem to let go. I wish he would want to come back. I also feel too much anger towards her. I feel depressed and want his attention. We still see each other because our daughter.