Lonliness, Feeling worthless, Depressed
I had my break up almost an year back. I broke up from my side. He got another girl friend just in a weeks time. This hurt me more. How could he do that, if he was not up for a break up? Above all of this, he made me know, that he is so happy and genuinely thankful to god, for having his girl friend. We owned a company together which had our initials as its name. And he has his girl friend with same initials as mine. And he easily replaced me from there. I did not want a scene made of the company issue. I let go of it. But he is happy and I am alone. I have no friends. He was a real good friend of mine. He ruined it by forcing me into a relationship.
I decided to opt arrange marriage to move on. But got a denial from the most wanted proposal. I was thinking I would be happy. I'm glad that I am not with my x. but there isn't even an illusion of happiness in my life. I have stopped working. Have lost my confidence. And need a runway to take off in my life.
I want to get over these depressed thoughts.