Hi guys. I'll tell everything that happened first, I need to let it out.

For the last few months I really fell for a girl who became my best friend, I didn't want anything with her at first but as we were getting closer I started becoming more interesting and her behavior definitely showed some room to make a move, everyone around us thought we were dating and she always said we were just friends. When I first became friends with her she didn't look so good but I didn't care I liked who she was, but what happened is that she started taking better care of her and became smoking hot which was nice but she became arrogant and thought she was the best girl in the world and started rubbing around everyone which made me a little sad and stuff but continuing.

Meanwhile she started dating with another guy right before I was going to tell her I like her in another way. A day after she went to my house alone, played some games with me, laid down in my bed(see how she is? Sigh.. ) and started telling me how she was in love and stuff like I was her gay friend or something. Then I finally told her I liked her while she was dating and needed some time alone, she said that she stated that we were friends from the beginning (then why the **** everybody thought we were dating?) and stuff, so after a week she started coming after me again and HERE IS MY ****ING MISTAKE I let her get into my life again and circle started again but now she broke up with the guy so I thought I could have a shot now and she said it will never happen.

That really tore me apart, and since we have the same friends I couldn't avoid her after that, I deleted and blocked her from MSN, I just graduated from high school and there she was rubbing around everybody and me also. At the end, all she wanted was attention and a little puppy and emotional pillow chasing her, she is doing with everybody the same thing. I mean, am I the one wrong here? But she messed with my mind so badly I can't forget her. And my friends act like nothing is wrong, I told them everything she did to me and they like: "oh too bad" and stuff and still keep talking to her and posting pictures with her and going out with her. SOME FRIENDS I GOT RIGHT. Anyway thank God I finally graduated and won't need to see her in person anymore but there it went 4 years of my life alone in which I made close to 0 friends because I thought I was better than anyone and never went to any parties and stuff.

So how do I get this girl out of my head? And the sorrow for having only one or two good friends? I'll try to make myself busy this days I guess it's the only remedy. I used to be more confident but this girl broke me in pieces now I feel fat and weird.. sigh. Sorry for the wall of text but I needed to let it out for someone that maybe actually cares.

P.S. I wanted to delete her from Facebook as well but she has some pictures with me in her photo album and I was a cowared and acted like it was everything fine the last two times I saw her. I'm a coward. What should I do?

First of all, don't let her know that she hurt you. This is like a drug to some women.if you act as if
Nothing she did bothers you, she will want to find out why her insensitive behavior didn't work.
Dude you have to be in control and don't let them know your hurting. It's a big freekin game, if
You play well,you will get more @#%*){! Than you can handle.good luck

First off man you need to but yourself around friends who really care... now about this girl she sound like the type of *** hole in my book and I understand you like her a lot or even love her but try to let her go.. delete her off everything because if you still see her face you are going to keep thinking about her and that's not good. Also always say to yourself that she lost out on you because this will make you feel so much better in the end... she really used you and keep saying that she not worth your tears or time OK girls like this want to feel like they own you and the more you cry and the more you think of her the more she owns you so stop... go to college meet girls do something with other people and trust me sooner or later she will die off your head

You can get through your growing pains experience by acting as nothing is wrong, being polite, but brief and unavailable around her, as you do your own thing, and get your own friends. You didn't like her that well anyway, and just saw an opportunity, and took it because it was there.

Next time look before you leap, and look again to be sure. Didn't you get she as fooling around with another guy? You should have and, just backed way off it then. Now you know, so stop crying, and complaining to friends, because she made you seem young and foolish, as you let her. You can still ignore her social net pages, and do your own thing, and get some friends outside the ones you work with. Heck get a life outside of your work, and things will change for you, as you get over this embarrassment.

Fake it till you make it.

Thanks for the answers. I guess the best thing here is to keep living my life on day after the other, keep myself busy, know some new people and with time this feelings will go away. It was an embarrassment really because I could have avoid it but I couldn't handle that attention and I fell into a trap. I'll be sure to look again next time.

I don't want to delete her from social network because this will give an excuse for her to contact me and as it seems she understood that I realized what she was doing and stopped contact I rather not enter social networks at all (That's right, goodbye internet) until I'm healead than having the minimum chance of receiving an e-mail or a sms saying: WHY YOU DELETED ME and stuff.

I was really dumb on this one, I had the chance to back down before it was too late and I failed miserably. Now all that's left is the knowledge and a bad memory I hope I can erase forever. Thank God it was High School so I don't give a **** to this, if it was college graduation I would never forget it because it's 100000x more important so I would have pics and everything and there she would be.

I'm already doing some progress, I contacted 2 childhood friends who doesn't know her, and we are going to the movies and hang out later today so I'll be all right. My last day at work today too so I'll have more free time (which is bad) but I'll dedicate it to finally learn 3ds max and stuff. I'll join the gym too I'm a little overweight so it's always good.

Well I finally logged into my social network today to pick up some pics from my graduation and I found a message from her saying: Where have you been? I miss you!
I panicked I don't know why. I shouldn't care anymore I don't know why I still give a ****.
I replied anyway (shouldnt) this: "Just partying :) Gone!"
And didn't get an answer and she did log in after that I guess the message has been sent and this subject is put to rest.

I hope so. You did keep it short and brief, and that was good, but be cautious of getting trapped into continuing conversations in the future.

Keep enjoying your freedom.

Yeah you are right I don't want to engage on any type of conversation.

She just answered : "All right then. Give me a heads up when you remember your friends."

Yeah right sure I will haha. I just erased this doesn't even deserve an answer. She won't give up her little dog right, things doesn't look so good with her "other friends" I see haha that's too bad.

I feel in peace now and can "enjoy my freedom" as you say. Thanks for everything.