How, what is the best method, routine. To help deal with emotional pain?

What is the source of the pain?

I feel as if I'm isolated. I have 3 sisters and a mother. Only male in the house. I have loads of friends, but feel as if I can't come to terms with them. The kind of guy, who always hinds behind his smile. Don't think I've had the best child hood growing up. But at times when I'm like this on my own. Always, at times have sudden rushes of emotions. I tremble all over the place when I get emotional, just can't seem to cope with feelings it seems.

What kind of pain, I think the answer is; I feel that the only person I got, my best friend is me.

How old are you?

I'm 18, 19 soon.

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Originally Posted by shak786

i feel that the only person i got, my best friend is me.

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Well, now you've got us too. We're here to help.

Is there some way to meet with a counselor and talk through this pain, plus get some goals set?

Thanks. That was very nice of you to say. Very appreciated.

I don't understand, can't come to terms it seems. With how to move forward.

Are you normally a shy person?

Have things changed lately for you, or has this been going on for a long time?

I'm not sure what you mean when you said "come to terms."

No I wouldn't say I'm shy. I have loads of friends.

I'm the kind of guy women would want to sit and talk to, it seems. I got anger issues, real real bad anger issues. I'm very mysterious, people always state, "you need to come out the shadows sooner or later". Not many people know much about me. My friends, we have laughs and hang around a lot at times. But not any of them know my surname, or birthday or etc.

At times, I think it's the pain. From what mother and father put me through. The harder that I try, its like the more it back fires on me. Hence, this illustrates to mould me into the way I am.

I haven't got bipolar. Every one always states they, they can never have a bad day when I'm around. I just feel this empty gap inside of me?

Or am I just thinking too much and the simple factor is that, I'm just hurting inside from events, the way my life is formatted out in front and behind me?

How is your life formatted in front of you?

I stated earlier I only have three siblings, all sisters. Therefore at times, the mountain of pressure is on me.

I try to picture spending my life with someone, but I feel as if it will never be. I have an ocean of people around me and access to, but yet I feel it will always be me. A loner in certain ways. Don't think I've had anyone to ever fully understand me. Share the burden, to take that bullet rather than me.

Me and my mom argue like hell. She's hurt me and I know I've hurt her it seems, in return. Been 2 weeks we haventspoken to each other. And I think about it all the time. But its not me that needs to change its her. And I know as time goes on, ill be the one to look after her. But I can't do it, like this. Her being the way she is.

Just really think I need someone to fully relate to. I think that's the missing key?

You need a good friend or a girlfriend, sounds like -- someone you can depend on, someone you can trust, someone who will help you when you have questions about things.

Meanwhile, you're holding in a lot of anger, maybe against your parents, in particular? Why are you angry toward them?

not a girlfriend. I've had my fair share of women, I have a close friend who's a female. But girlfriend a na na for me.

actually pondering on what you remarked, maybe your right? But I can't be bothered to get into a relationship I just want that special someone there to share the burden?

heyy is it all right if I private message you about my parents. Really don't want random people to know. Cause I don't want sympathy?

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Originally Posted by shak786

not a girlfriend. ive had my fair share of women, i have a close friend whos a female. but girlfriend a na na for me.

actually pondering on what you remarked, maybe your right? but i can't be bothered to get into a relationship i just want that special someone there to share the burden?

heyy is it alright if i private message you about my parents. really dont want random people to know. cause i dont want sympathy?

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We're not supposed to take the thread into a PM, but in the interest of confidentiality... hmmmm... I'll arm wrestle with the mods if they give us grief. Also, let's continue with some of this that can be public, just so it can help others who read it.