I just want to have happiness in my life again...

Can you give a little more background information?

Why can't you just go talk to him?

Try to communicate with him he is your boyfriend at the and of the day so talk to him any clear all the matters between you both... rest if you give a little more detail about your relationship with than I guess can help you in a better way... hope my little advice helps you..

Sounds like you're really having a bad day. What happened that's made you feel like you do?

Have your two split up?