My boyfriend acts like I don't exist, we dated for a year and month.
There was this boy.. My first love, I started dating him on September 23rd, 2009. He grew into my everything. At first, Our relationship was amazing. He always told me the truth, we never fought or argued. And he just treated me amazing. On December 23rd, 2009 he proposed to me. I know a little too sudden.. But we were truly, 'Love at first sight.' Suddenly, My parents started to fight CONSTANTLY. I have looked up to my father my whole life, I picked up his bad flaws. I have been through a lot through out my life and it effected my well being. I was insecure and negative. I ALWAYS started to accuse the boy of things he NEVER did. We would always fight over it. When we used to break up, he would always cry but was NEVER the one who broke up with me. Till I started accusing him more and more. I just didn't know how to stop. So he broke up with me every single time then come running back. We were violent, we would fight EVERY SINGLE DAY. Because of how I was... He was perfect but Ichanged him into a bad guy./: He loved me, and I just couldn't see it.. Well, One day about a month ago. I hugged one of my friends that used to like me. My boyfriend saw it and dumped me, because I used to jump on his *** ALL the time for talking to girls, I didn't let him have any girl friends at all. So he got mad because of my double standards. He said some hurtful things to me that day. And ever since he hasn't made the effort to talk to me.
Every time I called his house, It would just ring... Till one day I called and his dad cussed me out. When I tried talking to him at school, he would cuss me out and get mad at me. I thought maybe he was just mad at me and sick of everything. He told me he was sick of our relationship. He just doesn't act like I exist and I don't understand why. One day he loved me, the next I didn't mean anything to him. In school, he looks at me sort of but doesn't say anything to me. I asked him to be friends he said sure, but he don't talk to me. He still avoids me.. I really have been trying to change for him the past month. I have came a long way. He told me he isn't going to move on when I talked to him two weeks ago.. And he hasn't moved on at all. But I just don't understand what's going on. I still love him, and I still cry every time I think about thim. I dream about him, and I can't sleep. He is just my life. Literally. Please give me advice on what to do, or what's wrong with him.
My mother tells me to act like I don't care and pretend to be happy. I do that, for the past two weeks or so. And he still doesn't talk to me, just looks at me or looks for me but doesn't make it obvious. I just don't know. He plays mind games.. I miss him. </3
When I go up to him and try to talk he doesn't seem bothered, seems mad at me. I want him back more than anything.