I am a 26 year old young lady .I have been on meth for about 6 years every day . I have tried quiting any and in every way possible. My addiction is no secret to those who choose to be around me. I do feel as if the drug is holding me back . I can't love my kids the way I want and I have no time for any thing and yet I do nothing... I have been very luck to have some great people in my life that helped me survive . I don't work don't pay bills. And don't sell my *** for drugs . My looks have got me pretty far . I know they won't last for ever if I keep using . My teeth are going bad my skin is turning yellow . All my life I always been sad even as a kid meth has took all that pain away. I lost my mom and older brother to meth both very young when they died. I know all there is to know about how harmfull this **** is and yet I can't quit I'm scared... Im waiting for a miricale that's not even realality... What is this life for