Help I had sex with a long term friend.
Hi, so I'm a 20 year old girl. I had sex with my really good friend I've known him since I was 13. So about 7 years or so, and a long time ago he used to really like me. In fact he used to be in love with me, but the timing was always wrong and I was stuck with some jerk. We always have remained friends, and are comfortable talking about anything, no matter how long it's been between seeing each other. We have many mutual friends. And we kept getting drunk and ALMOST hooking up, like kissing etc.. But last weekend we had real sex.. 3 times within a couple hours. We were kind of drunk, but I think he thinks I was more drunk than I was, cause I was totally into what was going on. Now I don't know what to do. I talk to him and he acts awkward and gives me short responses. I thought maybe it might bring us closer together even if it's just a friends with benefits situation although I'm not that kind of girl. I could make an exception for him. I feel really hurt that he isn't acting at all interested anymore when he was telling me how much he always loved me that night. I don't know what to do, I honestly feel like crying.