Why do I care at all a year later?
I was dumped by my long term girlfriend almost a year ago (I had a thread on here back when it happened). I have moved on and am living a new life on my own, with a new career, and I am still single and dating. In the past few months she has reached out to me, texting or emailing me infrequently. She has sent maybe 4 or 5 messages that I did not respond to at all. I felt that I do not need her as a friend in my life and have stuck to that decision. And in a weird way I get some pleasure out of her text messages.
This past weekend I was out a bar with some friends and happened to run into her. This was unexpected and the first time we saw each other in about 6 months. We had a chat for a few minutes and I went back to my friends. Later in the night I was with another girl and ended up making out with this other girl. I did not even know my ex was still there, but I noticed my ex saw this happen and she stormed out immediately after seeing it. I found out afterwards that she texted me before that asking if I wanted to hang out/talk more.
My question is why was I affected by this. All I ever wanted was for her to come crawling back and me deny her. This kind of happened, but it wasn't the feeling I expected. I kind of want to talk to her. But I know I should not and go back to my own life.
Thoughts?