Broke up but still in contact
Hi, I hope someone's opinion will help me to see clear the things...
I was in a very good relationship, the man was planing family with me, we moved on very fast, was great... We had one issue according him, and that is my attitude. I became angry toward him couple of times, and I did not expect that he would became so hurt. He completely became insane the first time, I was so confused, I apologized, cried, we cried together... He told me he had issues with his dad when he was small and is too sensitive on "anger". This thing somehow was dragging in our relation, I felt... beside he was saying it was forgotten. We continued to love each other had good time. Then, second time I did it again, I said something, but I do believe it was like every other normal person going nuts sometimes... I knew I would regret, but before I could say anything, he said he wants to go out of the relationship, that;s it. I was hurt and did not know what happened and took it as my fault, however said, OK.. This happened at time when I lost my father, so I can not explain how difficult was for me, and I could not believe my boyfriend is so... with no compassion. But I could not let it go and told him to call me, he called... he said talk please, I could not and hanged up. Then I called and like that, we stayed in touch for a month, chatting, talking just casual things. Then after a month, I brought up the question of the break up and he freaked out.. then I stopped talking to him for a while, and after that said it's the best we really break up. However I asked him after a week just how is he doing and he replies, but does not initiate a talk. I still care about him, I am confused. Finally few days ago (2 months after) I wrote him a letter telling him how much he means to me and that;s all. Now plan to see if he initiates a talk in decent time I would talk to him, if not I will move on. Sometimes I feel sorry for him, sometimes I feel like I want to have calm talk about his issue (which he made to be mine at the time of the break up :-/). I do not understand anything. Btw we are not kids, he is 37 me 33, we were together 5 months. Thanks for any opinion.