I haven't been with another woman since my last ex broke up with me 5 months ago
I'm having a hard time. My ex dumped me about 5 months ago and ever since then I've been trying to heal myself and move on. Sometimes I have good days and sometimes bad. At the moment it's a mixture.
We both lost our virginity to each other, and sex actually meant something when we did it. Now I have been broken up so long I feel like I should be exploring more and possibly engaging with other women on an intimate level.
I'm finding it hard because, from what I can gather, she has completely moved on and is involved with several guys and most likely has slept with one or more of them. I have yet to be with other women and it's holding me back.
I feel like I should be doing more, but the whole process of intimacy is surrounded with anxiety for me. There are a few women I am interested in, but I just have no idea how to suggest to them I would like to take things to another level. Why is it so hard for me? How come other guys can just take a woman they've just met and get them so interested? Most people would consider me physically attractive but my emotional mind is such a mess.
I have the worst self esteem and thought patterns ever since this break up. It's killing me slowly and I can't stop it.
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Durable fulfillment doesn't come with working at high self esteem or on other aspects of yourself once... you have to keep working on them on a day-to-day basis.