Why have I blocked my childhood memories??
Hi I'm almost 17years old, no matter how much I try I can only remember bits and pieces of my childhood. For instance, I can remember being 4 and my mother teaching me pre school stuff, then turning 5 and telling her I wanted to be home schooled, besides remembering doing dance, and learning to swim and belonging to a swim team to this day that's all I remember until I was 8, and well my only memory of then is that I had to undress in the kitchen and in front of both her and dad then she would carry me to the bath. There was one time I fell asleep waiting for mom to give me my bath and when I woke up dad was taking pictures of me sleeping nude in the tub. Then from the time of which I can remember I was 9-10 years old and had to shower with my mother and that continued until I was12 to 13 years old. Beside these short memories there's not much more I remember. I need to know is there a chance I was molested by one or both of them and I blocked it all out? Also over the past year my mother wanted me, her, and my father to lay in my twin size bed to watch a movie, (my bed as you know being a twin bed would not hold all three of us) and we have a large den in our house that we can all have our own chair but they always insist I sit between them, then this past summer while on vacation my father had to work the first two days so my mother and I had to go alone, the problem is mom wanted me to sleep with her while dad wasn't there, she's also for the past 6 months has been wanting me to kiss her all the time when nobody is around and when I don't she get's pist off that I won't. To me at almost 17 does not seem normal to me it never really has. Please someone help me understand if I did block these memories cause they did something to me or do I have a memory rpoblem?? Thank You Oh yea mom is O.C.D.
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Not true I have friends that remmeber just about everything from the time they were 3 which is what made me wonder why I only have here and there memories.
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Yea I have been talking to my school counselor and because she works at the school as a sub teacher they aren't giving me the answer I feel I need. And my mother and father WILL NOT let me talk to a REAL counselor because that would make her look bad.
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See she smacked me near the end of last school year and I reported it to the school counselorbecause it left a mark on my face, and I was told to say I fell at first then told to tell the truth, because she works at the school
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I thought they would call child services and they didn't so I had a friend call, they came to the house and said that she is aloud to hit me, but I did nothing wrong to get hit and her ring left a hole in my chin where she cought me
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They told her to let me go talk to a real counselor and they trow EVERYTHING away outside of the house so I couldn't get the numbers that they were given and like I said that would make my mother look bad so she won't alow me to see a counselor
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You sound just like everyone else I try to get help from, and that is that nobody believes me when I try to tell them the hell I live in. Let me add also I DO NOT DO any of the wild things my friends do and 90% of the time I can't go anywhere's
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I'm a STRIGHT A student and compare to my friends I'm an angel, they all drink, smoke weed and cigarettes where I don't so I'm not the typical teen that says I misunderstood or not allowed to do anything
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Yes I'm iterested in that book please, and yea they did tell her that and I felt soooo helpless