I love two different people!Who do I choose?
So I've been on and off with my current boyfriend for a year and a half. For this conversation, lets just say his name is Allen. So "Allen" and I have stayed together for about two in a half months solid ( a big deal for us) and everything was going wonderful. We had even pondered an engagement! Well, a few weeks ago, a childhood friend showed up at one of our local hangouts.I'm just going to call her "Tina". I hadn't seen her in ages so I immediately ran up and talked to her. As the next two weeks went by, she came to our hangout more frequently... everytime she's asked "Where's your boyfriend?", "Where's your 'husband' ?" just sort of flirtatiously. Well I started to text her, explaining my relationship, how long we've been together and what we've been through. I also explained my relationships with other girls, before my boyfriend. As we talked more and more we realized we had a lot in common. I told "Allen" that I was going to stay at my cousins house with a couple of friends and I'd spend time with him the next day. Well the whole night "Tina" and I cuddled, watched movies and eventually kissed. We talked about our families, our dreams, and hopes, relationships, EVERYTHING. We even ended up doing more. I am really happy when I'm around her and since that night ( and one more night similar to this one) ,I can't help but to want to be with her. I ended up spilling the beans to "Allen", of course he cried, got angry, and even punched his truck, he said he'd let it slide but if it happened again it'd be over ( for some reason those words didn't bother me). I realize I am not as happy with "Allen" , I won't even have sex with him, I won't let him touch me, and we barely kiss. I make up excuses and blame it on a head-ache or other reasons. I'm afraid I might just be with him too much and need some space, that's why I'm straying. I'm afraid if I leave him, I may want him back or think of him and become depressed. I don't know how to sort out my feelings, my friends know me and him to well to give honest opinions, please please help. Thanks you so much.
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Thanks all of you, I have decieded to stay with Allen, and be %100 percent honest with him.