We met last time, I broke down badly and next day night he wrote me this message
"Consider yesterday's night as exception.Don't want to hurt u again and again and again.It hurt me as well to see u in that state.When I know it will not happen I should just quit and let u know.I wanna do the same. I have no rights to keep playing with your emotions.I am sorry.*** forget me and get on with ur life, if not just accept my status as a friend.Nothing more is possible.Acceptance will bring u peace.To me as well.I like u a lot.Perhaps u r the most caring person I could ever get.And the person who loves me the most.But irony of my life, I don't want anything.Just want to explore the world.Just want to be free.Hope u understand.Sorry if you can ever forgive me....
I know what I am losing.But sometimes when a glass is covered or full, everything poured in it will spill.However it might be, that's the case of my life.Don't want to say much.U understand me without my saying anything.The time spent with you was amongst the best times of my life.U will remain part of me somewhere in me throughout my life.I can never forget you.I never will.Wish u all the happiness the world can possible shower on anyone.May u get my share of happiness as well .The best.I will miss u...Godspeed..."
These were his last words to me.and after this I have start loving and respecting him more.Even if he is not with me, I can live my whole life with these words.. life long.. without any grudges.. but the most strange part is my inner voice is still not allowing me to lose the hope.. I don't know what to do...