How to get the one I love
I'm 18 and have just graduated high school. In year 8 I met a guy at my school who I really liked then and who I was really good friends with. After two or so years, we stopped talking as much because we changed social circles etc.
Last year we started talking a bit more again, and I realised I still liked him.
A lot of girls in my year have boyfriends and flings and such, not that I want to just 'hook up' or whatever, but at this age I should be having fun. Anyway I realised a few months ago that I love this boy. I know you hear teenagers and such going on about how they love some new boyfriend. But it's not like that, we connect on this level that isn't so much physical, but just an understanding. I'm a bit reclusive when it comes to speaking my emotions and stuff, but I find that with him, I don't have to, he just gets me.
He broke up with his girlfriend few months ago, and I've had constant dreams about him.
I can't like any other guy besides him, and I'm scared it will stay this way forever unless I take action on our relationship. I love him so much, but my shyness and unwillingness to put myself out there and be vulnerable to rejection means that I can't get myself to say anything. Let alone tell anyone I feel this way about him.
We have our final exams these few weeks, but after our last one, I very well may not see him again, which is what I'm most worried about because nothing can compare to him.
I just don't know what to do, I need to be with him, but I can't get myself to do anything.
Please help