I lost my mom in June this year. She committed suicide. I don't know how to really deal with it and my boyfriend isn't really helping me. I tried talking to church ladies but I can't cause I think sometimes what they told my mom is why my mom done it. I also I want to blame myself and my family. I have accepted the fact that she's gone but I havent' accepted the fact that I can't talk to her like I use to. I can't accept the fact that its never going to be the same. I can't accept the fact that I don't want to have fun cause I feel bad knowing that her last days or months were misserable. What do I do? She was really the only person that really cared about me and now that she's gone I'm alone basically. I have really no family. I talk to my dad but that's only 5 minutes a month I talk to him. My boyfriend tells me to just get over it cause he did when his dad died. I don't really know,. If she was here she would give me good adivce. But she's not here which is why I'm on this site.